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I'M EXCITED

GAMES HAPPENED

Thanks to a mysterious overfunding, I was able to obtain The Orange Box, Odin Sphere, Chrono Trigger, and Pikmin.

This is exciting.

However, my new problem is that I have no idea which to play first.


...and I still have Persona 2 and Earthbound to beat.

I'm postin' some arrrrt.

The arrrrrrt is under the cuuuuut


Once I get a TOTALLY LEGIT COPY OF PHOTOSHOP, some of these will ACTUALLY BE IN COLOR!

So I was running to catch my bus today, because I was running late after a club meeting.

What I didn't foresee was that as I ran, my messenger bag, which approaches a third of my weight on a good day, swung with the momentum imparted by my spurt of haste, and overbalanced me. As soon as it was in front of me, it sent me FLYING FORWARD.

I flew forward and actually went OVER my own bag, quite a feat of movement and poise. Even more amazing is that I only scraped an elbow. My glasses even stayed on.

But I missed my bus.

I like this room. In the morning, it is filled with the sounds of Touhou and visceral zombie noises.

Computer geeks are the best of mankind.

I don't know why I'm posting this... well, I guess it's 'cause mumumugen made a post about it and was sorta inquiring after such things... not that it really matters...

All I want for the HOLIDAYS~~~ is [in no particular order]:

1. art and writing related to my original characters/stories [go to ansemaru.deviantart.com or ask me for more details...]
2. art and writing related to Disappear! [that Persona RP]
3. delicious Zabuza/Haku anything
4. anything related to Kanji Tatsumi
5. anything related to VOLGIN~~
6. pretty much any MGS slash pairing, especially weird ones
7. winged asses

This may be the last you hear from me for a while. Shit hit the fan. It's only a matter of time...

If I can't make it to D!chat, tell everyone that I miss them.

I can feel the un-motivation gnawing at the back of my mind. I should be writing essays. I should be applied to colleges. I should be doing a million little things that would help me towards that goal. But all I want right now is to curl up and watch Darker Than Black. Perhaps work on some tags over at D!. Read fanfic. Write that Kazuya/Toru smut that I'm so tempted to write.

WTF is wrong with me? I normally can get so passionate about stupid projects, but with this, I can't bring myself to care all that much. Well, I mean, I care to a degree. My mom scolded that into me last night, and I feel guilty enough to get some substantial writing done... I feel the pressure of time creeping up on me, too. Less than two months, with the exception of Marlboro. Get on the ball, self. The good news is that the essay that I'm working on can be sent to at least two colleges with only minor modifications based on the one they're being sent to.

In other, less stupidly semi-angsty news, my interest tags have gotten progressively more demented. Yes, there are still 108 of them. They feature such gems as "dem balls," "butts," "fanservice," "torukaz smut," "devil/hermit otp" (which is very related to the previous item), "oontz oontz oontz," and "inaccurate genetics." Dear god, my maturity is regressing. Severely. Is there a term for this? Other than "being a 13-year-old-boy at heart?"

MGS4 and OId Snake are one and the same, just as Big Boss is MGS3. The fans adored the latter, idolized it, made it into a "perfect" icon, and wanted to propagate and continue it. So, thus far, Zero is the fans of the series. Therefore, 4 is a pale, semi-castrated clone of 3, which can be argued in a lot of aspects, but it also surpassed its predecessor.

In order for Snake to finish everything, the entire cast of MGS3 needed to be dead. Once he was free from that legacy, he had nothing else to do. There was no motivation; there was nothing left on the "inside," where he was created and meant to live. Upon Big Boss' death, he went both "outside" the world the Patriots had created and "outside" the world that the fans had forced to exist, his game world. Big Boss pretty much explicitly stated that Snake was free from control, and he obviously didn't just mean the missions and the Patriots. Just as in the ending of MGS2, he was freed from the player.

And just as the Patriots in-game helped him along to complete his mission, unaware that he would bring them down, too, the player unwittingly brought him to the point where he could break "outside" and never be controlled again. They did this both by demanding the creation of the game and by playing it through to the end.

The end of MGS4 brought everyone in that universe "outside." Outside is both outside of the Patriots and outside of the player's control, and therefore there cannot be a chronological sequel. By this logic, Rising by necessity takes place before 4. But at the same time, new games with Big Boss are possible, as he is a completely "inside" character. "Outside"-ness can only occur after his death. He's intrinsically tied to the Patriots/fans for his entire life, since he dies within the series.

The Beauties are obviously "inside," too. They die on the outside, as they make no sense out of MGS4's context. I... well, there's a lot that can be said about them. I'm more concerned with why Snake can never be the protagonist of another new game. I mean, other than the obvious physical reasons.

Then again, Raiden broke free of the player and the innermost "inside,"  yet Rising is still being made. But with the retcons, I suppose he still was "inside" at that point.

I... I beat it.

As someone who doesn't yet own a PSP, this means no more Metal Gear to look forward to for a while.

That's an odd new feeling.

Er... wow.

I'd have cried then. I really would have. Several times over, at several parts. But my sister was in the room, and she'd have mocked me.

I... did actually tear up, once. In the third act, when Big Mama (I still, by instinct, call her EVA) talks about The Boss. For some reason, though I couldn't really make myself cry over her death, this talk of her over forty years later did. But then my sister made fun of me and I had no more tears to shed.

Masculine bravado. Not wanting to be made fun of. A long-standing inability to cry over fictional media. I understand the factors that kept me from showing more emotion about it. But still... I feel...

empty.

Snake's apparent death, the microwave corridor (oh GOD THE MICROWAVE CORRIDOR), the entire cast of MGS3 being dead... there were a lot of things that I was upset by, and I wanted to cry over. But no. And now I feel as though my experience was damaged by the fact that I had someone with me the whole time.

I love playing video games with my sister, but...

Sometimes I wonder if I should've experienced this alone.

...I want a bowl of soup.

But I can't bring myself to make it. I know how it feels now.

Maybe I'll have eggs, instead.

...I'll make a real post about everything later.

Yes, yes, I know I'm over a year late to the party. That's why I'm not bothering with a spoiler-cut. Also, half of this has already been spoiled to me at some point in the past.

ACT 1 (IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER):

Oh jesus I hate "modern warfare" games. More specifically, I hate modern-day Middle East settings in games. Old-style ones, like in Assassin's Creed or Prince of Persia are fine, but if it's Iraq War-era ones, it's just terrible. Rubble and dust, angry locals, explosions, dust, sand, dust, rubble, what may have been some nice buildings once upon a time, chaos, dust, rubble, and no fucking plants. These settings bore and annoy me.

I miss the radar.

Navigating a city just doesn't feel right after the settings of the previous games. Neither does constant warfare between everyone around me. Neither does having so many people around.

AAAAUGH I HATE THE NEW CONTROL SCHEME PASSIONATELY. I am going to go skin Ryan Payton and turn him into a rug for what he's done.

Drebin has the best voice ever .<3 He is also generally a classy gentleman. <3

Meryl! Yes! I'm so happy to see her, big muscular arms and all. They're all the better for punching Johnny in the face. I also adore the Rat Patrol.

I cannot bring myself to believe that that is really Liquid. He doesn't have Cam Clarke's voice.

Okay, I'm really not going to say too much about Act 1, since I got to watch the whole thing the first time I ever encountered MGS4. Soyeah.

ACT 2:

This part consists of me making fun of Raiden, making faces at Rose, not being remotely surprised by Vamp, generally disapproving of Naomi, and loving Octopus.

I like this setting. It's like a microcosm of MGS3's settings, but with more guinea pigs.

I actually have no real input about Rose. I never call her, since I don't need to save my game with her now. <3

OH GOD RAIDEN YOU ARE SUCH A DORK NOW. HOW CAN YOU EVEN. LIKE, SERIOUSLY. YOU THINK YOU'RE SO COOL. BUT YOU'RE NOT. REALLY. Seriously, I guess my opinion is the inverse of the general fandom one. I took Raiden (somewhat) seriously back in 2, but now that he's Robo-Raiden the Ninja, I can't take him seriously at all. The high heels and long nails don't help. Neither do the homoerotic sword duels with Vamp. Actually, I'm just happy that Kojima had the balls to do that.

Urrgh, Naomi. I didn't like her much in MGS1, and she's clearly worse now. At least she was an interesting villain back then. Now... she's kinda skanky. I mean, I don't want to be SEXIST DOUBLE STANDARD or anything, but she's really kinda skanky, isn't she?

LAUGHING OCTOPUS <3 Oh my god I love this boss battle SO MUCH. And Octopus in general. <3 (I of course say this as somebody who appreciates the fanservice.)

I'm irritated by the Otacon/Naomi subplot. It seems PASTED ON and forced. And kinda manipulative? Kinda? Urgh. (I SWEAR IT'S NOT BECAUSE IT BREAKS UP MY OTP OR ANYTHING)

I forgot to say it earlier, but I find Sunny charming.

ACT 3:

I'm going to add more to this as time goes by, since I'm running out of time. Act 3 got the most emotional reactions out of me out of the acts so far.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH TRENCHCOAT HANDFOOT ROBOTS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH

That was the first thing in a Metal Gear game that genuinely scared me. It was so bizarre and disconcerting and Uncanny Valley and AAAAUGH THREE-ARMED ROBOTS. I'm going to hate dealing with them, I can tell.

Also:

THAT WAS SOLIDUS, I SAW HIS RIGHT EYE ffffff I can't believe I caught a split-second detail like that. BIG BOSS DIDN'T BURN YEAH

Meme (not gene or scene) from heroine_junkieyo.

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What would you do if you had a crush on a BNF? Especially if it was a BNF who patently lives in a different part of the world than you.

Graciously ganked from mumumugen then accidentally posted in his comments~

REGULAR VERSION
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VILLAIN VERSION
For my slightly less embarrassing major antagonist in my main, major story.

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I love you all, so much.

That was the gayest subplot ever.

I love you I love you I love you. <3333333333333333333

Your challenge is to write crossover fanfiction combining Metal Gear Solid and Totally Spies.
The story should use becoming the President as a plot device!

I WILL SERIOUSLY WRITE THIS THING.

>>>You're too weak for fandom.
>>>What?
>>>You get involved so that people will like you more, so then you always go along with everyone else's opinions.
>>>I'm just ambivalent on a lot of issues.
>>>You supress your opinions, and then you have no original ideas to post about.
>>>No, I'm just not opinionated.
>>>Yes you are. You just post your opinions on fandomsecrets so you don't offend your friends. Instead of in your journal, so all you ever post about here is stupid RL crap that nobody cares about.
>>>I don't like to offend people.
>>>And thus you don't have opinions, thus making you very bland.
>>>I'm not bland! I have a great sense of humor!
>>>Yes, you do post a lot of crack. After all, it doesn't offend people.
>>>What?
>>>If you pass off half of the pairings you like as jokes rather than things you like, nobody will you judge you for them.
>>>...
>>>And another thing. You want to be opinionated, but you can't take the heat of people arguing with you. Look at what happened on F!S yesterday.
>>>Okay, you're just making shit up. You're not me.
BOSSFIGHT

cock

cock

cock

shit

cock

my laptop died

I'm going to find the misanthropic fuckwad who created Contravirus and fuck him sideways with a screwdriver, since that's essentially what the program did to my laptop

now I have to reset the whole damn thing

and I lost all of my fucking music

and I have to wait until tomorrow to get internet on it, thanks to my mother's overprotective WEP key on our wireless

which means that I'll have to explain to her that I disobeyed her instructions and managed to get VERY destructive fake-spyware on my new computer within a MONTH of getting the damn thing

fuckitty fuck fuck fuck fuck

all I wanted was goddamn Photoshop :(